there is so much more to this than this little entry
16.05.23 | 10:01 am

in the book i just finished reading, the love interest comes back. everything all makes sense in the end. the love interest immediately wants to get married, says they'll figure it out, that it doesn't matter where they live as long as they are together.

and i cried... because that's what i want.

i want someone who wants to marry me. who wants to have a party with all our friends and family to celebrate us.

i want someone who wants to be with me, physically, no matter where we are. even if that means that we are in our tiny hometown with nothing much to do unless we drive at least thirty minutes out.

and i want seth to be this person.

i don't want to have to push him into anything. i don't want him to propose to me one day just because he knows i want it. i want him to want it. i want him to be excited about the possibilities of being together with me every day, waking up, going to sleep, having dinner, sipping wine on the back porch. i want him to want these things just as much as i do.

the problem is that i don't know if he does.

i don't know if he ever will.

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