but that's life for you, you dumbass
2011-09-25 | 11:10 p.m.
so i'm not entirely sure how i'm feeling right now. because it's not really anger, and it's not really embarrassment, either. because i completely understand what you mean, and i mean that truly: i do. i'm not sure if i should be angry at myself for getting "caught up" (if that's what i want to call it) for two weeks, or if it is okay, or if it is a damn good thing that at least i'm willing to try something and i'm not afraid of it, yeah? you know? maybe you don't. also, if i'm being completely honest i can say that more than anything i really, really wanted the attention. oh, how i craved that. and i really, really wanted to be kissed. and so that's fine, i'm not really embarrassed or mad at all, but i can't find the word for it, you know? i really can't.