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2011-12-27 | 2:54 p.m.


eric sent me an email telling me merry christmas and happy new year. that's really all that it said.

why am i crying?

i try to figure out why i am so bitter. i think if i'm not bitter, i'm afraid i'll let myself feel bad for him. i'm afraid i'll forgive him. i'm afraid i'll let someone treat me terribly like he did again.

he's not a bad person, but he made so many bad choices.

i told him i didn't hate him, because i don't. but sometimes there's still that overwhelming sense of failure that washes over me and i can't seem to get it off.


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