the optimist died inside of me...
2012-04-19 | 10:06 a.m.

i'm having a bit of trouble with myself right now.

i had a discussion about how i am constantly stressed with a friend the other day (and how he is never stressed out, at all). this topic continued on until he said something along the lines of, "but you're really happy all of the time, tia. you're not fake happy-people can tell fake happy and they don't like it. but people love you and how happy you are."

i wanted to cry. it feels like it's not true. like i haven't been keeping up the happiness i'm supposed to have.

true, i get excited about everything. every. little. thing. which can either be really "adorable" or terribly "annoying."

lately i'm not happy. i feel down. really down.

but i'm trying to climb my way up. i'm hoping that's what counts.

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