ridiculous stream of my thoughts. YEAH.
14.06.12 | 11:46 pm
being polite is really important in my book, and when people aren't, either to me or someone close to me, it makes me lose a little bit more faith in humanity.
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finished the entire first year of the vlogbrothers/brotherhood 2.0.
HOO HA NERDFIGHTERS!
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brian powell keeps trying to hang out with me.
no. just, no.
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i'm not sleeping well lately. and i'm waking up and feeling awful throughout my entire day. i'm exhausted at work and i come home hoping to fall asleep and it takes hours.
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i have an iPhone 4S and oh my god it is the best thing i've ever owned in my life i almost can't handle how awesome it is, seriously. i am so happy. you should've seen me when i brought it home, i was ecstatic. after having really awful blackberries for a few years that continually messed up while watching wistfully at my brothers' iPhones... I CAN BE HAPPY TOO.
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i think i've spent all the money i've earned this summer in gas...
that's bad.
i've applied for a lot of bookstore jobs and i've inquired about a lot of writing jobs which turned out to not be available (the writing, not the bookstores). hopefully i'll hear something back soon.
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my room is way too fucking hot. i go to sleep without the covers on and wake up sweating. it's terrible.
in fact, all of outside is hot. that's why i should move to england. because there, last year, that was the perfect weather for summer. oh, la. i miss it.
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this entry is long and disjointed and ridiculous, just like my life! YEAH!
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i am unproductive. this goes back to sleep. i get to bed way too late (often i haven't been falling asleep until 3 in the morning, and imagine, just last semester i was waking up at 5, 5 days a week...), i wake up late (or attempt "early" at 9), two days a week i do things early for the ball park, otherwise i watch the vlogbrothers or read books by john green (i haven't started on my non-john green books on my reading list yet, and oh by the way, does anyone have any reading suggestions?), and then i look at the clock and OH DAMN it's nearly 3 or 3:30 and i've gotta be at work! and then i get off around 9:30 and i come home and try to relax and then... can't... sleep... there is no productivity there. and i am gonna fix that!
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can i be pathetic for just a second? just a little tiny moment please? i want to like someone again. i want to feel like i can talk to someone again.
i don't talk to anyone here. i love my family but we are inherently different in a lot of ways and on a lot of key issues (although we do share the same sense of humor and tastes in movies, which is almost just as important...). i just don't feel like i've talked in a long time about things that are important to me. it's odd.
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something i said to someone that was provoked (notice the that corresponds to the something because it isn't a who): "i am inherently unsexy. it's part of my charm."
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oh and i'm teaching myself geography because i'm ashamed i can't even put the states on the map without help. but, oh, i can now!! and now i'm working on world geography. yeah, learning things i never learned in school! (which is so incredibly sad, let's be honest, i don't ever remember having to do anything with maps.)
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this is long enough plus my computer's about to die. i'm wishing you all a nice night of sleep, world, because we all know i ain't gonna get any!