my pain is real too
27.01.13 | 8:07 am
i am a victim of having too much hope and too high expectations. it has always gotten me and it always will and because of it, i will never be satisfied.
i almost said this to you the other day: emma is the only thing in the last four months that gave me any sort of purpose. in a way, she pulled me out of this despairing hole that i'm not sure i had realized i'd fallen into. i almost said that to you, but i'm not sure you'd understand. and more than a lot of things, i fear being misunderstood.
most of the time i feel like even i don't know what i'm saying.
the best compliment i've ever received is that i'm a very self aware girl, and it's probably the thing i'm most proud of.
but i'm not sure where to go from here.