it's cold here
27.11.15 | 10:05 am
at some point he said, "it sounds like you're breaking up with me," and i honestly responded, "i don't know."
he told me that i shouldn't let him, or my job, or an apartment keep me in any place. that if i want to go anywhere else, i should. it was helpful. he said, we could still get the apartment and if i left in a month, six months, a year, that would be fine.
now, since then, he's been even nicer. talking about the future. talking about our apartment.
but i'm moving farther and farther away from it. i feel terrible but something isn't right.
is it colorado? is it my job? is it my boyfriend? what?
should i go to another country? should i go home? should i move into denver and keep working until i figure it out?
there are too many questions i have to answer.
my brain is tired.
i had my first thanksgiving without my family and i suppose i survived. i don't know.