10.04.16 | 11:16 am

You spend so much time - in our case, technically about 3 years - building this life together, this strong friendship, this relationship. I have relied on him more than anyone else for over two years, and vice versa. How do you even begin to dismantle all of that?

He drank a small bottle of whiskey all day yesterday. He went to his work event, drank two double whiskeys, and was drunk by the time I got home from chaperoning prom.

Each time it feels like I'm empty, I start crying more.

We slept in our bed last night, holding each other. And this morning we started to get up, but I rolled over and we held each other for another half hour.


While I was driving to prom yesterday, half of the Colorado sky was dark and looming. I swear, it was like a giant rain cloud sent to follow me and only rain over me. On the other side, the sun was shining bright and beautiful.

It just reminded me of tornadoes.


He is gone to find his jacket from top golf. I made us breakfast and he is going to cook spaghetti and meatballs for dinner.

I don't know what we are doing. What are we supposed to do?

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