why am i always so consistently unhappy
27.09.16 | 7:59 pm

i put on my coat and my shoes and walked outside with my goal in mind to squire a bottle of wine to drink tonight. once i shut the door on the dogs i should be walking in this beautiful weather, my stomach flipped and i walked back inside.

then my boyfriend texted me that we have an extra bottle of red in the apartment, and guess what i'm drinking right now?

it's all useless.

i can try to be good, i can eat better, i can exercise - and i'm still sitting on the couch at 8pm crying at the great british bake off because i feel like i'm a failure of a teacher and i will never have a balanced life or feel fulfilled in any sense of the word.

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