still on my mind
17.08.18 | 6:58 am
it’s so strange to find someone who makes you feel so good about yourself in such a short time. the way he looked at me, the things he said - they made me feel so good. made me think he was lucky to be with me.
but when one big thing turns out to be a lie, it all feels like a lie. and it can be a blow.
it’s weird to think that as of yesterday, i’ve only known he exists for a week. he wants to call me sometimes. i think what i sent yesterday mostly cut off the contact. for the best.
it was nice to feel for a few days like i had something secure for once.
i think in a few years down the line maybe i’ll reread this and think how silly i am.
*i do really enjoy more how i look these days, and i don’t need the validation from someone else, but it sure can help.