meet you at the statue in an hour
10.01.20 | 7:12 pm
last night, i got drunk alone and rewatched someone great and sobbed and then made a playlist titled "like letters and sodas" (thank you, liz phair) full of songs that make me want to be in love.
tonight i'm going out with angela and graziana, and i hope that will help pull me out of whatever this is. i have a bad habit of isolating myself when i feel this way. so that's tonight, and tomorrow paola and daniela are coming in to roam around the city a bit. maybe this will all help.
i don't want to be regarded as someone's mistake.
i want to be worth it to someone.
i spent two years in my hometown dealing with no one wanting to date me because of the distance, and now i'm here in a city full of people and no one wants to date me because eventually i'll leave. no matter where i am i'm undateable.
so these people think the only thing i'm good for is just a quick, fun time. and that's not what i want. it's just not.
i don't know. i'm just trying to get the thoughts out.