04.04.20 | 7:48 am

every morning i wake up, i feel so heavy.

what am i getting out of bed for? to sit, alone, on my couch? to drink a glass of wine, alone, while i video call my friends, for whom it is six hours too early to drink? to watch episode after episode of tv because someone recommended it to me, when i never get the same actions in return?

to take emma on a walk. to feed her. to take her outside. to feel the sunshine, briefly, on my face.

everything hurts today.

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