it’s not a great day
17.05.20 | 6:17 pm
i made myself walk emma for a while, did 70 squats, 70 deadlifts, 70 pushups, and 70 crunches, and then a half hour tae bo video (calling back to my high school years with billy blanks in the dvd player in my parent’s bedroom).
i had interspersed bouts of crying and laughing while i completed the workout.
then had a shower.
and now i have wine.
everything is back to feeling useless, like there’s no reason to do anything anymore. i can’t wait until i’m home and actually with other people again.