i have to rewatch bojack now
23.12.20 | 12:47 pm
i gave a lot of myself to you, in a very strange, roundabout way.
and now this boy i'm talking to will read my messages and not actually respond to anything i said, just move on to what he actually wants to talk about.
kind of like you did.
and i don't have the ability or the patience or the desire to go through any of this again.
a lot of things were tied up with you: the possibility of staying, of mastering a language, of living an "exciting" life.
but none of those are my reality.
and that's okay.
i'll answer you when you message me. but i am done reaching out, putting myself out there to be ignored, only responded to in the briefest of windows when it is convenient for you.
i gave too much of myself too quickly before it made sense.
we live and we learn.