this is ... unkind
24.09.21 | 9:07 pm

i am so unbelievably hurt.

after speaking every single day for two straight months (a ridiculously large portion of our days), he hasn't messaged me since tuesday morning, and barely messaged me the whole weekend before.

i know i said i would just be grateful that i had this at all.

and i am.

and i'm writing this whole stupid fucking list about the things i'm grateful for about all of it.

but i'm so incredibly hurt. i know that there is, was, something actually real here. i fucking know it. and now i'm just sitting here crying in my bed on a friday night because a boy halfway across the country hasn't really texted me in a week.

fucking hell.

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