august tired.
18.08.22 | 6:01 pm

the beginning of school is always exhausting, but i never expect it to be this exhausting. giving that i'm teaching all entirely new classes this year, i basically have to go day by day... when i normally have things planned out at least a week in advance.

i've already taken one extra rest day this week and i decided not to run tonight either because i am just so tired. i am probably going to be in bed by eight.

it doesn't help that i was scheduled for early duty the first three weeks of school.

my anxiety has been mildly worse. talked to my therapist about it, talked about how i don't want to up my medication, talked about other options. but i am getting so tired of the anxiety just sitting in my chest. we ate at texas roadhouse for seth's dad's birthday and it was so loud and so much was going on that i couldn't breathe correctly and had to consciously talk myself through the dinner. it's so ridiculous.

and after spending practically the entire summer with seth, having to go several days in a row without seeing him is lowkey making me miserable. i wish i could just come home to him, hug him, eat dinner with him, play a game with him. i hate hate hate having to wait.

anyway... i need to work.

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