thoughts on health anxiety
12.12.22 | 5:33 pm
i honestly think there is no way for me forward without a moderate to intense exercise schedule in the future. i don't think my brain can handle it. time off or idle time leads me to think i'm dying, there must be something wrong, every little tiny normal thing (that means i am a human who lives in a body) suddenly points to my demise.
i guess it's good to know.
but it's... depressing? i don't know, to think about how this will stay with me.
how it is a part of me.
how it's never going away.