reflecting on old friendships
2010-08-12 | 11:45 a.m.

sometimes i like to fool myself into thinking that really, we are still best friends. that really, there is a gap there now, but it doesn't block out everything from the past, and it doesn't have to stay there in the future. but really, we aren't ever going to move past it.

mostly, i wonder if you ever do the same.

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if you hadn't been such an utter asshole to me, i think i would've tried to follow in your footsteps. a little more, at least. you would've pushed me, probably past what i thought were my limits, but i think i would've been grateful.

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i am lucky, though. to still have two people that i don't lose faith in? i am a lucky girl.

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