stagnant
12.03.23 | 7:10 pm
in many ways, i am.
tuesday, i have an interview to be co-department head for next year.
i'll be teaching dual credit and AP courses next year, as well.
professionally, i am getting squarely in the space i want to be.
but i think it's clear that seth absolutely does not want to move down here, that he definitely thinks he'll be able to convince me to move to him. this, even though he works remotely from home, even though my whole family is here, even though i love my job and where it is headed.
legitimately, i don't know if i will be able to convince him of the opposite. and maybe i shouldn't in general.
but still living here, still not having my own space, still not being able to do what i want when i want... it wears on you.
and i currently feel very directionless with my workouts and what i want to even focus on next. (do i even want to focus on anything in particular? i don't know.)
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i just need direction. i need to feel like i'm moving forward.
currently, everything feels... stagnant.