no babies
13.05.17 | 9:41 am
yesterday i spent two hours by myself convinced i was pregnant and waiting to take a test (i'm not pregnant). i spiraled thinking that maybe this would be a sign that i have to go home, spiraled thinking that for the past week (since i got sick and threw up everything in my system) my body has felt more mine, more comfortable than it has in a long time, so if i were pregnant, it must mean i should keep it. anyway, i'm not pregnant. so it doesn't matter. but it would've been a reason to go home, and the fact that i'm looking for one so hard means something.