the end of the f***ing world
12.01.18 | 2:38 pm
i watched all of the end of the fucking world today in one sitting and it's fantastic.
every time i say the name of the show, my parents say, "do you have to cuss?" even though bret straight up called me a bitch and a fucking hypocrite in the last couple of days and they said nothing. so honestly, actually, that's what's on my mind - this stupid trivial shit that makes me feel like i'm 16, not about to turn 28 next month.
it's a snow day and i'm reveling in it but also, get me out of here.
please and thank you.
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edited to add: there are two moments i love the most in that show. one, this boy says, "i don't like my life," and this girl says, "then do something about it." that resonates now, i suppose, although i can't quite do anything for the next five months, can i?
secondly, i like the note about how she'd have gotten him a present. it's kind, and it feels like the kind of unassuming love that teenagers feel, the kind that i felt a long time ago, too. it's been quite a while, hasn't it?
i just always feel so heavy, so weighed down. and i've been doing these 30 days of yoga now, and i can feel it - i can feel the emotions when they lift away, but soon, perhaps an hour later, they're back. they've just taken a vacation.
i wonder if it's always this way.